Shakin but Thankful

Last night was the scariest moment of my life. I thought my daughter had drowned. To my extreme thankfulness to God she didn't and is safe! But those moments I will remember forever. Emily is 6 and loves to swim and does a good job. She practices holding her breath in the bath tub. Well, that is what she was doing. I always stay close by and check in and listen while she does this. It had been a little bit and I suddenly did not recall hearing her. The phone rang and I walked past to get it...I see that she is face down in the tub. I call her name as I get the phone, thinking she is holding her breath and she does not respond. I walk in 3 seconds later and yell her name and no response. I threw whatever was in my hands and pick her up out of the water and roll her over... to my relief she blinks and is stunned, I bring her to me and hold her tight as I burst into tears.

Now I know that she was indeed holding her breath... but I feel traumatized. For those moments I THOUGHT she had drowned and that is real. Those feelings were and are real. Unlike a dream I did not wake up knowing it never happened. I saw her floating there face down, I picked her up out of the water... it was real. 

I keep reminding myself that she is and was safe... every hour I have to release the fear and guilt to Jesus because every hour I see her laying there face down. Every time I close my eyes. There she is laying face down. I can't even imagine how people handle it when they actually lose someone they love tragically, when I feel like this and everything was fine.

I am SO thankful to have my daughter and that she was not in danger. But I needs your prayers.